words for my baby | workin' mama

I wasn't sure if I wanted to post this because it's such a normal thing that so many women go through, and I shouldn't dwell on it.

but then I thought about the amazing community of mama's I have here and how much great advice/encouragement I've gotten in the past and decided to share my thoughts. 

because we're here to lift each other up when we're feeling down and build each other up when the mom guilt hits us hard.

so, in short...

about a month ago, I started back at work (after 12 weeks of maternity leave) and my heart has been a bit broken ever since. 

don't get me wrong, I am very thankful to have a great job that allows me to provide for my family and give my child nice things, vacations, and someday soon our dream home, but it also breaks my heart to have to leave him, even if it is only part time. 

I know staying at home also comes with its own set of challenges and being a stay at home (or work from home) mama is not for the faint of heart, but I loved it. 

I've dreamed of being a SAHM since I was a little girl. 

as I got older, I prayed for it.

and I still hope that someday it will happen.
but for now, I'm thanking the Lord for all the incredible things He's given me and doing my best not to long for what I can't have.

I hope that if your family is lucky enough to have one parent stay at home with your kiddies, you know how blessed you are. don't take it for granted and kiss those sweet cheeks all day long just because you can...

Wilder Ray, I know this is only going to make our relationship stronger and I hope you know I'm doing it all for you, babe. 

and the backyard I'm going to watch you run around in.

and those expensive fishing poles I know you're going to ask for someday.
and that amazing college I know you'll get into. 

I love you to the moon and back sweet boy and I'm going to be wishing I was with you always.